Am I obedient?

Obedience:  Distrust in oneself in everything,  however good it may be, right to the end of one's life.  

The Ladder of Divine Ascent  

Step 4 Ch 5

I had to give this a lot of thought.  Then it made sense to me.  How can I possibly make good and proper decisions in anything if I am tainted by sin?  Is my decision swayed by the things surrounding me?  I don't live in a monastery and am no monk.   Remember to make those decisions in life that can affect everything in a manner that is most rewarding to the salvation of your soul.   Thank GOD for my spiritual father.